All started in the middle of April somehow and came to a climax around a month later. Having excruciating headache, visual apparitions which were mistaken as auras of a migraine and the radiologist having me get an appointment three weeks later.
I probably would not have made it till then, and we managed to get an appointment at another radiologist the next day. He found this 4.2 cm big thing in the left brain hemisphere, and called an ambulance to take me to the clinic right away.
On May 23. I had a brain surgery and it was a really scary experience for the others around me.
At the time it was not for me, I felt strangely taken care of and just took everything in as it was.
My right side was paralyzed by the time they did the surgery and it was not feeling anything out of order for me.
I even fell and could not judge how severe the paralysis had become untill I was on the floor in the bathroom and could not get up on my own.
Nothing was hurt except the pride ... needing help getting up and back into bed.
I had to spend 14 days in hospital untill the histological results were there, no parasitic cyst, as they suspected, just old bleeding of unclear genesis.
Then I was home for a whopping 5 days, and in that time the paralysis started to get worese again, and a fever developed, so back to the hospital, new CT, MRI and emergency surgery to remove the newly built up cyst. They suspected infection but the histological samples did not prove it right, it was called abcess, and I was given a course of antibiotics IV and released after another 14 days on a Friday.
Then I had to go back on Monday morning to have the stitches removed.
After getting home from that, big yellow goop oozed out of the wound and I had to go back the same afternoon and the third surgery was necessary to remove the infected bone part and clean out the wound to make sure nothing of it went into the brain. Though it seemed to be limited to the surface, they still told me there would be a 4 week IV treatment with Vancomycin and Cephtacidim.
This time was the worst of all this, seven IV treatments covered over 24 hours, meaning every nightsleep was disrupted with the very painful vanco treatment. For a total of six weeks then.
It still happens very often that I can not get to sleep before 1 in the morning since this was the time of the last Vanco of the day.
Physically I have survived everything and the scars have healed. My veins are brittle from the aggressive IV treatment and it is hard to find a vessel for drawing blood now without causing the vessels to pop.
I have to go in for regular checkups and so far everything is ok from the Neurosurgeons point of view.
Mentally this was a really hard time and I dont know how I will deal with it, it still is not over yet.
It also affects our partnership and is a strain on all of us.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Monday, May 12, 2008
dandelion and easter egg colours
I dyed a skein of sock yarn with dandelion, trying to attempt a yellow.
The palest parts on this skein are the dandelion dyed which resemble an ecru colour.
I guess I have used too little dye material for the 100 grams yarn, so it did not get that intense.
So I stirred up some yellow and orange easter egg colours and spiced up parts of the skein.
It looks very summery now, just like fruit sherbet.
Hope the socks will be looking nice, I plan to knit up from this.
Right now there are washcloths and cat toys on the needles and the occasional spin on sock yarn out of the 95 grams of black and white roving I was given by Holly.
On my CD spindle there is a light brown and green with blue roving, I try to spin as thin as the spindle allows.
I try to ply it with a still to be spun cotton to make a not so warm thin thread for a summer scarf for biking.
Any Ideas on spinning cotton? I have never done it and the fluff in the bad terrifies me a little, I wonder wether there will be success in turning it into string :-)
The palest parts on this skein are the dandelion dyed which resemble an ecru colour.
I guess I have used too little dye material for the 100 grams yarn, so it did not get that intense.
So I stirred up some yellow and orange easter egg colours and spiced up parts of the skein.
It looks very summery now, just like fruit sherbet.
Hope the socks will be looking nice, I plan to knit up from this.
Right now there are washcloths and cat toys on the needles and the occasional spin on sock yarn out of the 95 grams of black and white roving I was given by Holly.
On my CD spindle there is a light brown and green with blue roving, I try to spin as thin as the spindle allows.
I try to ply it with a still to be spun cotton to make a not so warm thin thread for a summer scarf for biking.
Any Ideas on spinning cotton? I have never done it and the fluff in the bad terrifies me a little, I wonder wether there will be success in turning it into string :-)
sweet liddle tidietat has new blankie
I knitted a blanket for Siri out of the first wheelspun and she likes it a lot, snoozing on it at present.
She barely looked up for the picture :-)
It is strange to be working from the own spun yarn, and the thick and thin texture made me worry it will not lay flat, but the loose gauge on a 6 mm needle and the finish of double crochet on a 7 mm needle made a nice little blankie out of the string.
She barely looked up for the picture :-)
It is strange to be working from the own spun yarn, and the thick and thin texture made me worry it will not lay flat, but the loose gauge on a 6 mm needle and the finish of double crochet on a 7 mm needle made a nice little blankie out of the string.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
second wheel
This is me, trying out the wheel in Duisburg.
We were not sure if it was functional, but it proved to be just that.
It is pretty fast, and I was able to produce the most even string on it so far.
Now to more practise on the borrowed Louet.
It is a S10 by the way, and It is fun to hear the clicks of the joinend driveband and see the thread forming and the twist wandering up.
Very soothing to the senses.
If it is the same for the people living under us, I can not tell, but I sure hope they would come tell me if it was too annoying.
We were not sure if it was functional, but it proved to be just that.
It is pretty fast, and I was able to produce the most even string on it so far.
Now to more practise on the borrowed Louet.
It is a S10 by the way, and It is fun to hear the clicks of the joinend driveband and see the thread forming and the twist wandering up.
Very soothing to the senses.
If it is the same for the people living under us, I can not tell, but I sure hope they would come tell me if it was too annoying.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
hand-spun-yarn
my first wheel spun 'skunk' colourway.
I am amazed at the learning curve which can be seen in the thickness of the started single to the second one I then plied with it.
On the thinnest parts it is a thin fingering weight, and on the bigger parts, it is a bulky.
Part of it will be knitted up into a kittie blanke, and the rest will be kept in a skein to look at and compare with future spinning progress.
A Friend with many wheels let me borrow her Louet for a while, and also gave me lots of fiber to play with.
There will be many more skeins in the future, I guess, and all fiber related income will be saved up for a wheel of my own.
Maybe after the crafty exhibit in July it is not far away, to get it ;-)
So I dont have to worry about going 'cold turkey' if I return the Louet.
I had a try at an old wheel my friend's grammy has as a decoration piece, and we were able to make it spin a fine thread, but it really is creaky and loud, but maybe it was me not treadling right on it, since the footman had a longish hole and making it go round in one direction only was not the easiest.
You will see it in a different post, if flickr finally allows me to upload the pictures.
I am amazed at the learning curve which can be seen in the thickness of the started single to the second one I then plied with it.
On the thinnest parts it is a thin fingering weight, and on the bigger parts, it is a bulky.
Part of it will be knitted up into a kittie blanke, and the rest will be kept in a skein to look at and compare with future spinning progress.
A Friend with many wheels let me borrow her Louet for a while, and also gave me lots of fiber to play with.
There will be many more skeins in the future, I guess, and all fiber related income will be saved up for a wheel of my own.
Maybe after the crafty exhibit in July it is not far away, to get it ;-)
So I dont have to worry about going 'cold turkey' if I return the Louet.
I had a try at an old wheel my friend's grammy has as a decoration piece, and we were able to make it spin a fine thread, but it really is creaky and loud, but maybe it was me not treadling right on it, since the footman had a longish hole and making it go round in one direction only was not the easiest.
You will see it in a different post, if flickr finally allows me to upload the pictures.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Now I know why I miss her so much recently
On the phone with my sis a few minutes ago I heard of the passing of my beloved mini Schnautzer "MAXI".
She was born on Aug 3. in 1991, around 11 o clock.
I know so well because I helped her into life, her and her brother "MOPPEL"
there was a third puppy, but it did not make it and I was grieving a long time about the little one back then.
If I manage to digitize a picture of her, I will see if I can add it on here.
She was getting old, deaf and blind, but was well together, from what I have been told, she must have slipped on the foil of the garden pond while wanting a drink and drowned.
This is not my fahters house and garden, but the ex-boyfriends, and I dont miss him a bit, but my little girl I missed every day we were apart.
I am glad, she is at a better place now, and can hopefully be in peace, since the ex is not a very caring, pet loving person, but rather one who provides material needs, but did never bond with her.
This must have happened around three weeks ago, and dad told my sister about it, but since he and I are not on communication terms, he did not tell me.
April will never be the same for me any more, knowing she left us then.
I will always remember her kisses, and how she looked after the shearing, and how much prescious time we had together before I separated.
I was heartbroken to leave her behind, but she just is an outside dog who needs a big garden to dig around in, and I could not provide that to her, so I left her where she was born, and knew everything.
Lebe wohl liebe MAXI und sei Dir sicher, ich vermisse Dich und hoffe, da wo Du jetzt bist geht es Dir gut.
She was born on Aug 3. in 1991, around 11 o clock.
I know so well because I helped her into life, her and her brother "MOPPEL"
there was a third puppy, but it did not make it and I was grieving a long time about the little one back then.
If I manage to digitize a picture of her, I will see if I can add it on here.
She was getting old, deaf and blind, but was well together, from what I have been told, she must have slipped on the foil of the garden pond while wanting a drink and drowned.
This is not my fahters house and garden, but the ex-boyfriends, and I dont miss him a bit, but my little girl I missed every day we were apart.
I am glad, she is at a better place now, and can hopefully be in peace, since the ex is not a very caring, pet loving person, but rather one who provides material needs, but did never bond with her.
This must have happened around three weeks ago, and dad told my sister about it, but since he and I are not on communication terms, he did not tell me.
April will never be the same for me any more, knowing she left us then.
I will always remember her kisses, and how she looked after the shearing, and how much prescious time we had together before I separated.
I was heartbroken to leave her behind, but she just is an outside dog who needs a big garden to dig around in, and I could not provide that to her, so I left her where she was born, and knew everything.
Lebe wohl liebe MAXI und sei Dir sicher, ich vermisse Dich und hoffe, da wo Du jetzt bist geht es Dir gut.
Friday, February 01, 2008
sock pentathlon
A day before the announcement of the needed material for the first round I want to write about this.
It oficially starts on March 1. and we are supposed to post our finished socks in the yahoo group
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/skp2008
I guess you can still sign up if you like, and be in the fun.
It will take place the year over and every 2 months there will be a new challenge, so at the end each participant hopefully has 5 pairs of fun new socks and (s)he does not have to send them away, they are all theirs.
The patterns will be medium in the complexity level, but maybe introducing new techniques or styles.
All in all it sounds doable and might help me to focus on one project at a time, so I can lose some of my scatteredness and finally have some 'me' knitting after all those last projects for others :-)
It oficially starts on March 1. and we are supposed to post our finished socks in the yahoo group
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/skp2008
I guess you can still sign up if you like, and be in the fun.
It will take place the year over and every 2 months there will be a new challenge, so at the end each participant hopefully has 5 pairs of fun new socks and (s)he does not have to send them away, they are all theirs.
The patterns will be medium in the complexity level, but maybe introducing new techniques or styles.
All in all it sounds doable and might help me to focus on one project at a time, so I can lose some of my scatteredness and finally have some 'me' knitting after all those last projects for others :-)
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